First and foremost, I know I say this a lot, but I have been busy. At the beginning of the summer, I remember thinking to myself that four months of summer seemed like it would drag on. But I was very wrong. Every month thus far has been filled with so many activities and events and things to do, that I have been spending so much time out in the world and less time at home. Although my blog has had to take a backseat, I have really been loving it! I wanted to come on here and just write, and update you all on some things that I’ve been doing and stuff that has been going on in my life. I think this will also serve as a way for me to look back and appreciate the inevitable and necessary changes that have been going on!
I have been thinking a lot (as I do) this past week. The main question I kept asking myself was “What do you want?” I feel as if I’m in this stage of being stuck in a cycle of back and forth. I will have moments where I feel so inspired and have a rush of motivation to just go out and do stuff, and then there’s moments where I’ll just be sitting doing pretty much nothing, failing to recognize that it doesn’t get me anywhere.
I didn’t really have a post planned for today, but I kind of just wanted to sit and write about some things that have been on my mind lately. I mean this is called alittlebrittofeverything, and it wouldn’t be alittlebrittofeverything, if I constantly write about everything and never keep you updated on the Britt part.
WOW! My blog is already a year old! Can you believe it? I can’t. When I think back to a year ago, I honestly never would have thought ALBOE would be where it is today. I’m not saying that I’m huge and successful by any means, but I never would have imagined that I would be getting constant positive feedback from a lot of people, that I would have people who always keep up to date with my posts and that I would be able to write posts on behalf of other brands!
When I first started this blog, I really only told a handful of people who I felt the closest to. I posted the link to my blog on my Twitter and Instagram, but I went through phases where I would take it down, then put it up again, then take it down, then put it up again… I think the reason why I was so indecisive about putting my blog out there was because of fear. I was scared that people might think it’s stupid or that people would talk about it without me knowing, thinking that it’s weird, people would be annoyed at my self promo blah blah blah… I pretty much spiralled into the never ending cycle of negative “what ifs”. It was also a challenge because it seemed to me that these days, people are more into watching videos on YouTube than reading reviews on a blog.
My skin is something that I have always been pretty self-conscious about. It isn’t terrible, but I think that the years of bad, painful breakouts when I was younger have scarred me into covering it up behind makeup (Don’t get this confused though! I wear makeup because I like it, not because I am insecure about my skin. They just happened to compliment each other!)
As far as my face goes, most of the time I wear foundation, and if I’m not wearing foundation I usually have on a bit of concealer for my dark circles and little spots. This week I really wanted to challenge myself to go foundation free. I’ve been trying to inch out of my comfort zone little by little, and the thought of being in public places without foundation intimidated me.
Do things you love because you love doing them.
I read something once that went something like: Even if no one will read it, write it anyways. Even if no one will hear your voice, sing out loud! Even if no one will watch it, film it anyways.
The basic message: your worth is not determined by how people react to you. Do something because you see value in it and because you love it and because it means something to you.
This is just a relevant message I felt that I needed to post. It’s a reminder that I think many people need to hear right now. (Or maybe this is a sub-post to myself because I need to remind myself of this)
Hi everyone! Long time no post. I thought I would update you all with a few things that have been going on in my life. So much good has come my way, and it constantly reminds me that I am blessed, and also that I am in charge of what happens to me.
1) A big part of the reason why I wanted to start this blog was because I thought it would be so cool to get products sent to me to try. And it happened! Influenster and Bite Beauty sent me two of Bite’s new Lip Pencil to try out for free, as well as samples of their Amuse Bouche lipsticks! This was such a cool moment in my life, I gotta admit. (I’ll do a post on the products soon!)
2) Last year, I applied to change programs and was rejected because my GPA wasn’t high enough. Obviously this had damaging effects to my self esteem and made me feel like a failure. But ultimately, I couldn’t blame anyone but myself. So ever since then, I really committed myself to focus on school and try harder than I ever have. Now I’m pleased to say that this time around, I got accepted because my competitive GPA was high. And that is such an amazing feeling.
Other than that, these past couple of weeks have been proof that I have such amazing people in my life. I feel like I say this all the time, but I am so eternally grateful to have people that constantly pick me up on my bad days, check up on me when they know things have been going rough and also just friends who are always down to hang out when I’m bored. I’ve been blessed with such a supportive circle of people, and for that reason, I don’t think I can take full credit for my successes and high points. I couldn’t have done this without the love and support of all my family and friends! (Seriously though. I can’t emphasize enough how supportive all of you guys are. I might cry.)
As many of you have probably noticed, I have been inactive for a couple of weeks now. Long story short, my grandpa passed away at the beginning of February, so it has been a tough time for my family and I. In the weeks leading up to his passing, we were at the hospital pretty much every day, which takes a considerable toll on one’s physical and emotional wellbeing. During this time as well, my anxiety felt like it was at an all time high. Walking into the hospital made me extremely anxious, as well as leaving the hospital because I never knew if that would be the last time I see my grandpa. Even to this day, passing the hospital still makes me feel weird (which is pretty inconvenient since my boyfriend lives right across it). School was a bit tough for me, as this situation was the only thing on my mind, which made it extremely hard to concentrate. It was also pretty hard watching everyone in my family deal with this tragedy.
Personally, I felt like it would be pretty superficial of me to write reviews and posts about beauty and life, when I had other things going on in my personal life that were more of a priority to me. In comparison to the things that have been going on, I really didn’t care about makeup or anything. However, I think that was a mistake on my part. I really do love writing and talking about makeup, so cutting that part out of my life could be a factor that added to my sadness. But at least I know for next time.
So that explains my absence. But with every cloud there is a silver lining! I wanted to save this part for last just because it is kind of a heavy topic. Thanks for reading this far though! And I hope none of you give up on me 🙂 I have potential! And I would love having more people along with me on this journey.
I did the coolest thing. I went to a wolfdog sanctuary. As you probably guessed by the title of this post. I am completely in love with big dogs, so being able to spend the day with them was so much fun. We got to feed them and pet them and I learned a lot of things about wolves and wolfdogs that I didn’t actually know. First off a wolfdog is any dog with a bit of wolf in them. A high content wolfdog has more wolf in it than dog, and a low content wolfdog is more dog than wolf.
For example, did you guys know that wolves in the wild are actually very timid and shy? They would rather use their flight response instead of fighting. The media does a bad job of representing wolves because they’re always portrayed as wild, vicious etc. In incidents where a wolfdog has attacked a human, people are always quick to assume that it’s because of the wolf in them, when its actually a dog trait. Wild.
We also got to observe the behaviour of the alpha male of a pack and how the rest of the wolfdogs act around the alphas. In this picture, Nova (the white one) was waiting for the approval of the alpha Zeus before he took the treats we were throwing at him. Our guide also gave us a rundown of behaviours that only alphas would do which was cool, because it was things you wouldn’t think twice about (for example, only the alpha male pees with his leg up, all the other male wolfdogs pee in a squatting-like position)
Here’s an action shot of Nova catching a treat in his mouth. We made a great team, but I do admit some of my throws weren’t the best haha.
I love doing things like this. Any opportunity to learn and have fun at the same time is the best. And the fact that it involved these majestic wolfdoggos made the experience so much more worthwhile. I definitely recommend for anyone to come here, or to just visit any kind of animal sanctuary. It’s a very eye opening and fun experience and I would definitely do it again.
These are low content wolfdogs. They were not shy at all and ate out of my hand and kept want rubs and pets. They’re HUGE.
I recently celebrated my 22nd birthday on January 2. I was blessed to be able to spend the day with many people who are very close to me and I also get to see all my other close friends later on this weekend.
Birthdays have changed in meaning for me over the years. Of course when you’re younger, you’re excited about all the cool presents you receive and being able to celebrate with a big party and good food and whatnot. I feel like now, birthdays are a chance for me to look back on my year and think about what I want to do for this upcoming year (though, don’t get me wrong, I love parties and cake and good food!)
I’ve been reflecting a lot and the main thing that I want to focus on this year is giving back. I have so much time and potential that I can offer to those around me and I want to be able to dedicate myself to helping those who may not be able to help themselves or may need the extra boost of reassurance or confidence or love. I want to become a person that radiates positive energy to everyone in my life .
I also really want to develop myself creatively. At 21, I dabbled into some creative things, this blog being one of the major project I took on as a creative outlet, but I also want to try other things as well. I would like to develop my makeup skills and maybe even learn how to apply makeup well on other people to help make them feel even more beautiful and boost their confidence. I want to improve my writing and become a frequent poster. Like I said, I know I have a lot to offer, and the only way to prove that is to show it in any way I can. I want to give you guys even more quality content that you can genuinely learn from or take something away.
And lastly, I don’t want to hold myself back. In many instances in my life, I can recall not doing things because of this intense fear of failing, or not being good enough, or being judged by people for not doing something right. Now I realize that literally anything can be turned into a lesson. Stepping out of my comfort zone is quite intimidating to me, but I will never grow as a person if I’m always too scared or too shy to do something. A lot of the times, I am the only reason why I am held back from experiences, so I desperately need to work on developing an inner voice that is stronger than my fears.
If you listen to your fears, you will die never knowing what a great person you could have been.
Anyways, happy new year you guys! I hope this year is prosperous and filled with many great times for you. And I hope to see and hear from you all more often. What are some of your new years resolutions or goals?
PS. I also forgot to mention that as another creative project, I made a Project 365 Instagram account, where I’ll be posting a picture every day of the year and a little bit about my day or my thoughts for the day. If you want to check it out, my username is @365daysofbrittney. It’s a public account so anyone can follow it!