Here’s the thing… | Life Update (ish)

I feel like there is a never ending list of things I need to do at any given time, but my mind always feels so cluttered and I get distracted easily, and my mental to-do list just keeps getting longer and longer. After graduation, I remember feeling so liberated because I could finally “do me” for the summer, and live my life the way that I want to and at my own pace. However I’m coming to learn that my transition from the student life to complete freedom (“complete” freedom isn’t exactly true, but this is the closest I’ve come to it in a while) has been a struggle to say the least.

Now that I don’t really have deadlines that are enforced or straightforward laid out goals I am required to meet, I feel like a large part of the structure that I actually once loved is gone. I don’t know how to keep myself motivated or accountable. And that’s another thing. Consistency and accountability are two things I seem to be struggling with a lot lately. Now that I think about it, these things are things I have struggled with my whole life. I’m consistent, but not in the habits and mannerisms I want to be consistent in. I make goals but I don’t hold myself accountable to attaining these goals.

So what’s the whole point of this? I don’t really know. I feel like I just needed to get this down as a reminder to work harder than I ever have. Life doesn’t come with a manual, so I gotta work even harder to pave my own way and make it possible for myself to live my best life. I read this and feel lowkey ashamed because I know that I only have myself to blame and I feel as if I am always writing about the same things, with no results BUT I’ll just take this is another sign from the universe. It’s telling me that I need to be comfortable being outside my comfort zone and that I need to CHANGE.

Things I need to remember (aka paraphrased quotes I’ve taken from some of my favourite Youtubers and books):

  • Your mind is a terrible office, so always write things down
  • Not everything is a matter of motivation. I’m never motivated to go to the gym, I just go because I have to. It’s like going to school. I don’t always wanna go but I know I have to
  • Alway create content for yourself first, and others second. If you are creating something that you wouldn’t be interested in consuming, you need to ask yourself why you’re making it in the first place.
  • WHO CARES WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK! At least you have the guts to put yourself out there in the first place. And at the end of the day, that puts you steps ahead of someone looking at what you’re doing an wishing they had the confidence to do the same … Always be proud of yourself!

But real talk… I realize this is all talk. I keep saying the same things over and over again, and still somehow seem to fall short. I want to be better so I really need to try. I know I’m destined for way more than what I am and where I am in life right now. If you’re struggling like I am, then I wish us the best of luck. And if you aren’t, please tell me your secret!!!

I’m gonna end this post off with a picture of CJ floating peacefully and carefree in a raft down the river, because this is what I need my mental state to look like right now.

💖, B

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P.S. I know these are always so rambly and never make sense and are alway about me being confused, but thanks for sticking with me through this regardless!

Does Biotin Actually Work?

Last summer, I was diagnosed with alopecia areata. Basically, this is a disease that causes my body to attack my hair follicles resulting in my hair falling out in large chunks. Specifically, I developed three large bald spots at the top of my head. If you’ve ever had to wait for an appointment with a specialist (in my case, I was waiting for an appointment with a dermatologist), you know just how painstakingly long the process is. I went to my family doctor about it at the beginning of August of last year, and didn’t actually see a dermatologist until the end of November. That’s three whole months of watching helplessly as the spots grew bigger and more of my hair started to fall out.

I didn’t have very many options available to me, so I decided to try biotin. My intention was to use it as something to offset my hair loss, not as a cure (currently, there is no known sure for alopecia!). I’m sure most of you know that biotin is supposed to promote healthy skin, hair and nails, or you’ve at least seen one Sugarbear Hair ad on Instagram or Youtube. Being the skeptic that I am, I wasn’t about to spend money on Sugarbear hair because I didn’t trust it. So I just went to my grocery store and bought straight biotin supplements.

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I bought the Jamieson Biotin supplements, and each little tablet contained 10, 000mcg of biotin. There were 45 tablets and I took one everyday until I ran out. Then I went and bought biotin gummies at a lower dosage (which I still have because I stopped taking them, so they kind of just sit on my shelf). And long story short, I didn’t notice any change in my hair. There wasn’t anything growing where the bald spots were, and I didn’t notice a change in the length or thickness of my hair either.

IMG_5825 But, I did notice that my nails were stronger and grew faster than normal. I normally wouldn’t be able to grow them out as long because they were usually brittle and broke easily. My nails in this screenshot may not look very long to some, at least in comparison to the claws I have now, but back then, this was considered a big achievement for my natural nails (so you could imagine how cheesed I was that I broke one of them).

From my personal experience, I can vouch for the positive effects biotin has on nails but it didn’t do anything to help my hair. Obviously, my circumstances were quite different from the average person, but I didn’t lose all my hair, so I expected at least some change to occur.

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Taken from: https://www.sugarbearhair.com/collections/popular-vitamins

In terms of Sugarbear Hair, I can’t speak on it because I have never tried it before. On their website, they do have a breakdown of all the ingredients in the gummies. They use more than just biotin in their gummies, so maybe the combination of ingredients helps to better promote hair growth. But I would still take this with a grain of salt. Keep in mind that while Sugarbear Hair says that their products are manufactured in facilities that use FDA approved guidelines, they aren’t actually an FDA approved product.

I asked my dermatologist about biotin at my first appointment, and he said that there hasn’t been solid, conclusive evidence and research that shows that biotin actually helps your hair. And I’m not going to lie, I did try to look for research articles using my school’s database (yes, I ACTUALLY researched this… old habits die hard) and I couldn’t find many articles that supported the use of biotin for hair growth. In fact, a lot of the ones I came across concluded that there is a lack of evidence to support healthy individuals taking biotin for hair growth, and that biotin supplementation is actually unnecessary in healthy individuals as the daily amount that we need is usually obtained through our food.

My hair is still in the process of growing back, no thanks to biotin, but from the Kenalog injections I receive from my dermatologist. My take on this is that I personally don’t think biotin products work for hair growth. I trust my own results and what has been presented in scientific research. I’m not trying to bash anyone that uses or wants to try biotin supplements. But if you want to try other options, my dermatologist told me that Rogaine works (don’t be fooled by the fact that there is a Rogaine for men and women, he said that women can use the men one, and it’s cheaper too), and there’s some evidence (not conclusive) that fexofenadine aka Allegra aka a type of allergy medicine, can help with hair growth in alopecia areata patients as well.

DISCLAIMER: Please use common sense, and don’t start popping allergy medicine like candy or start using a men’s hair growth cream, before talking to your doctor. This advice was given to me by my dermatologist because I was dealing with a disease resulting in major hair loss. Strong hair is nice, but health is wealth!

I hope this post has helped to open your eyes on this topic and I’m curious to know your thoughts on this. If you’ve ever tried Sugarbear Hair or biotin supplements, did they actually work for you?? Let me know!

💖, B

Shoutouts to the universe, I see you!

I don’t believe in coincidences. To me, coincidences are meaningful signs from the universe. Just ask my boyfriend. I can’t even count how many times something has happened to us (whether we send each other the same meme at the same time, or we bring up something that the other was just thinking about) that has made me look at him with wide eyes exclaiming “OMG WE’RE MEANT TO BE!”

Okay so. Last night, at exactly 11:02 PM (I wanted to remember this moment!), I handed in my very last final exam. Meaning that I am officially done my undergrad degree. Now if I’m going to be blunt with you, I really don’t have any solid plans as to what I’m going to be doing in the next year. Of course I should look for a full time job or I should be thinking about going back to school and I should be starting to look for all these things right now, but if I’m going to be really blunt with you – I haven’t put any effort into it. At least not yet. Now, okay. I feel like most people will be rolling their eyes at me for not being realistic, but some people may also find themselves to be in the same situation as me. I initially felt like I have no experience whatsoever, so my chances of getting the job I want (I don’t even know what that is yet!) are very slim.

Anyways. Tying this back to my first paragraph about signs from the universe… You might recall that I included the book “You Are A Badass” by Jen Sincero in my January Favourites. I used to read it religiously, but when the semester started picking up, it became more difficult for me to set time aside to read. With today being my first day of “freedom”, I figured this would be the perfect time to finally sit down and read! So I picked up the book, sat down, and began reading from where I last left off. And as I continued to read, I kept thinking that there has to be someone following me around and leaving these signs for me to see because it’s scary how accurate this chapter was for my life and my current situations.

This chapter is pretty much about how she felt unqualified to get a cool job involving something she loved doing, but she felt unqualified, so she lied on her resume and ended up with the really cool job. The take-home here isn’t “lie to get your dream job!!”, it’s that saying you aren’t experienced enough is really an excuse to stop you from what you want to do, and you lack determination to do what you need to do to be successful – whatever your version of successful looks like. Rather than putting in large amounts of energy to make up excuses as to why you can’t do something, invest that energy into yourself and your dreams. Actively seek out opportunities and connections that will allow you to do what you are truly passionate about. Passion trumps fear.

It is so easy to say “don’t procrastinate!” I mean we all do it, and I swear I’m the QUEEN of procrastination. But as Jen Sincero puts it “If you’re serious about doing something, you will find a way to do it. If you’re not, you’ll find an excuse. The one thing that has really been stressing me out is the fact that I’m going out into this big, big world with no experience in my field whatsoever. And knowing that I have no experience has made me not even look for a job in my field. And I want to grow my blog, but I’ve always told myself that no one would want to work with me because of my small following. So as you can see, this chapter seems like it was aimed directly at me. I’m taking it as a sign that I must do the things I’ve been wanting to do, regardless of how experienced or knowledgable I feel. I need to stop letting fear and anxiety stop getting the best of me!

Anyways, I wanted to write this  post for two reasons:

  1. If you believe in signs, and if you are in the same situation as me, then I hope you will see this as your sign to go out and do whatever it is that you were too scared to try.
  2. I haven’t written in a while and now that I have more free time, I really want to devote it into making ALBOE more personal and something that means even more to me. I mean, my blog is literally called A Little Britt of Everything (emphasis on the everything), and a slew of monthly favourites posts aren’t living up to that.

I hope this wasn’t too ranty. And I hope that you will begin to see more of me soon! Exciting things are coming!

💖, B

🔥🔥🔥 Spicy Noodle Boyfriend Tag 🔥🔥🔥

Hey everyone! My boyfriend and I have been wanting to do the boyfriend tag and the spicy noodle challenge for quite some time now, so we figured why not just combine the two? I had a lot of fun filming this, minus the fact that my mouth was truuuly on fire. I also thought this would be a nice way for all my readers to get an idea of who my boyfriend is, since I talk about him all the time anyways.

So if you have time to sit and watch this funny lil vid, as well as get a little sneak peek into mine and CJ’s relationship, the video is below!

💖, B


2017 In Review – My 1SE

Happy new year everyone! Wow. Can you believe it? We made it through another rotation around the sun. It couldn’t have come soon enough, if you ask me. I look back at the year and it made me realize just how fast it has passed, and it makes me think about everything that I have learned and experienced in the past 365 days. It also makes me very glad that I took on a 1 Second Everyday and a Project 365, because I’m always going to be able to remember this year of my life.

This wasn’t necessarily the easiest year of my life (in fact, I would say that 2017 is up there on the list of difficult, trying years), but if there was one thing I could take away from it, was that I learned a lot. This year tested me in so many ways, and some times I thought I would burst from the stress and anxiety I felt during the difficult times of this year. But I made it out alive, and I’m still trying to learn how to find the balance in my life. And if there is one thing I can take away from 2017 is the amount of lessons I’ve learned – about myself and about life in general.

I hope this year treated you well, and if it didn’t then, good news! It’s a new year haha. May 2018 be everything you want it to be and more. Remember that you cannot control what happens to you, but you can control how you react to it!

💖, B

RIP Jonghyun

Originally, I didn’t know if this would be appropriate to post on here. But I wanted to briefly talk about it because I was shocked at how much this situation impacted me, and as someone who wants to pursue a career in social/mental health services, I feel as if I have an obligation to talk about it.

Many of you probably already know that at one point in my life, I was obsessed with kpop. While many girls my age were crazy over the Jonas Brothers and whoever else was culturally relevant in 2009, my friends and I were busy fangirling over kpop bands. SHINee was one of the bands that fuelled my obsession. Even though I mostly stopped listening to kpop near the end of high school, the news of Jonghyun’s death had my friends and I (as well as the rest of the world) feeling completely shocked and heartbroken. As more details came out about his death, it made me feel frustrated and angry about the situations surrounding his death, but also deeply sad for the struggles that Jonghyun must have gone through.

It saddens me that depression and mental health still isn’t something that people take seriously. I’m not trying to downplay that though, I realize we are making strides towards ending that stigma, but I personally feel as if we still have a long way to go. Jonghyun had opened up to his doctor about depression and the doctor just told him it was a voice in his head that would go away. No!! Of course, I definitely don’t know Jonghyun personally, but I feel as angry as I would if someone I loved had received the same treatment. It angers me that someone would even think it’s okay to tell someone else that, when they came to you in confidence and trust! It is very sad that Jonghyun’s death was needed as a sort of wake up call to the nation that a person’s mental health is so important and central to everything else in their life.

I am not a trained professional by any means, but it doesn’t take someone with a doctorate degree to reach out to someone who is in trouble. Look for warning signs in your loved ones. Don’t just let them know you are there for them. Actively check up on them if you are concerned with their words or actions. Help them get help. And don’t wait to let the people in your life know how important they are to you. Tell them now. Tell people you love and care for them and that they make a difference in your life, because life is too short to be full of pride.

I just wanted to share something I learned in one of my classes this semester. It is called Mental Health First Aid, and I feel like they are just basic steps that anyone can use to help them approach someone they are concerned about, or the first steps that can help someone who has asked you for help. The steps are remembered by the acronym ALGEE, but they don’t have to be performed in that order.

  • Assess the risk
  • Listen non-judgementally
  • Give reassurance and information
  • Encourage the person to get appropriate professional help
  • Encourage self-help strategies

Please know that you are important and that you matter. The world would not be what it is today if it was not for you. Rest in peace Kim Jonghyun. Thank you for giving me years of happiness, even when you were suffering. You did well.

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💖, B

ALittleBrittofSummer: Mexico 2017!!

This trip was hands down the highlight of my summer. This was my first time in Mexico, and it was a great first experience. Everyone was so friendly, the food was amazing and authentic, the weather was beautiful, we were near the beach and Puerto Vallarta (and the surrounding area) itself was so beautiful. Our resort was so nice, clean and there was so much to do when we weren’t out on one of our excursions. I would 100% come back here again. If anyone is planning on going to Mexico anytime soon, definitely consider visiting Puerto Vallarta, and look up Grand Fiesta Americana Resort!

To be honest though, I’m surprised this vlog is as short as it is, because I felt like we did so much on our trip. Our days pretty much consisted of eating, drinking, swimming and napping, when we weren’t on excursions and it felt so nice to chill! If you’re interested in seeing what we got up too, then definitely check out my vlog 🙂

This also marks the end of my ALittleBrittOfSummerSeries! Thank you to everyone who kept up with it, and I’ll see you guys back again for Vlogmas!

💖, B

Goodbye Summer ’17 – 9:49PM Update

Today is my last official day of summer.

I remember my last day of school last year, thinking to myself how long a four month summer seemed. But it flew by in a flash and now it’s over.

Normally, school is something that has just always been there. Going back to school each year has never really evoked any strong emotions in me. But this time around, I have been feeling pretty nervous the closer back to school comes up.

This year is my last year. When I made my schedule last spring, I made a couple errors, which pushed back my graduation date. By some sort of crazy coincidence, I managed to get a spot in the two classes I needed as prerequisites for two other classes I can take next semester. That also means I will be in five classes each semester, which is technically normal, but I’ve only ever taken four classes each semester. So I’m scared I’m going to be very overwhelmed and struggle really hard.

I guess I can’t (and shouldn’t) sike myself out because I literally haven’t even started classes yet. I’m just going to keep reminding myself that this is the last push. I feel like the fact that I randomly checked the courses, and there just so happened to be one spot left in each class I needed, should be a good sign that this is what was meant to be. If you believe in that kind of stuff.

As I look back on my summer, I’m very grateful. I can’t help but smile because I got the chance to do so much in those four months. I made new friends, I got a new job, I went to the concerts of some of my favourite artists ever, I celebrated new milestones, I experienced fun and exciting things, cross items off my bucket list and I got to travel with my best friends and the love of my life! I have nothing to complain about this summer.

If you’re reading this, I hope your summer was as eventful as mine was. And if you’re going back to school – best of luck to the both of us! Let’s make the best of the remaining months of 2017. Stay strong, focused and determined. Let’s achieve these goals together yall! We got this.

💖, B

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Mexico vlog is coming soon – bear with me!

ALittleBrittOfSummer: Vlog 7!

Hey hey heyyyy! This vlog consists of a bunch of things I’ve been doing in August. It’s not that eventful because I started my new job this month, so I haven’t been able to go and do a lot. But I’m glad I’ve still been able to vlog a little bit. I wanted to get this up before I leave to Mexico (tomorrow!! aahhh!!) because I want my Mexico vlog to be it’s own thing.

With the summer coming to an end, I just wanted to thank everyone who watches these regularly! I have a lot of fun vlogging and editing, and it’s pretty rewarding to know that others enjoy what I do. So anyways, enjoy!

💖, B

ALittleBrittOfSummer: BRUNO MARS EDITION!

Hey again! This particular vlog is dedicated to my short weekend trip to Edmonton at the end of July for the Bruno Mars concert. This was literally one of the best concerts I’ve ever been to. And I’ve been to a lot of concerts you guys. Only two more vlogs until my summer series ends y’all. I’m kinda sad… But anyways, hope you enjoy!

💖, B

ALittleBrittOfSummer: Vlog 5!

Can you believe it!! We are in August and summer is already over! Which is why I’m very glad that I’ve been vlogging, so I can look back and remember all the fun things I did this summer. I like to make vlogs for people to watch and enjoy, but I mostly do them for the sole purpose of looking back on some fun memories.

Anyways, here is episode 5 of my summer series. It’s kind of a concert heavy vlog, so you can skip over those parts if that isn’t your thing!

💖, B

July In Review

First and foremost, I know I say this a lot, but I have been busy. At the beginning of the summer, I remember thinking to myself that four months of summer seemed like it would drag on. But I was very wrong. Every month thus far has been filled with so many activities and events and things to do, that I have been spending so much time out in the world and less time at home. Although my blog has had to take a backseat, I have really been loving it! I wanted to come on here and just write, and update you all on some things that I’ve been doing and stuff that has been going on in my life. I think this will also serve as a way for me to look back and appreciate the inevitable and necessary changes that have been going on!

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