Hi everyone! Long time no post. I thought I would update you all with a few things that have been going on in my life. So much good has come my way, and it constantly reminds me that I am blessed, and also that I am in charge of what happens to me.
1) A big part of the reason why I wanted to start this blog was because I thought it would be so cool to get products sent to me to try. And it happened! Influenster and Bite Beauty sent me two of Bite’s new Lip Pencil to try out for free, as well as samples of their Amuse Bouche lipsticks! This was such a cool moment in my life, I gotta admit. (I’ll do a post on the products soon!)
2) Last year, I applied to change programs and was rejected because my GPA wasn’t high enough. Obviously this had damaging effects to my self esteem and made me feel like a failure. But ultimately, I couldn’t blame anyone but myself. So ever since then, I really committed myself to focus on school and try harder than I ever have. Now I’m pleased to say that this time around, I got accepted because my competitive GPA was high. And that is such an amazing feeling.
Other than that, these past couple of weeks have been proof that I have such amazing people in my life. I feel like I say this all the time, but I am so eternally grateful to have people that constantly pick me up on my bad days, check up on me when they know things have been going rough and also just friends who are always down to hang out when I’m bored. I’ve been blessed with such a supportive circle of people, and for that reason, I don’t think I can take full credit for my successes and high points. I couldn’t have done this without the love and support of all my family and friends! (Seriously though. I can’t emphasize enough how supportive all of you guys are. I might cry.)
As many of you have probably noticed, I have been inactive for a couple of weeks now. Long story short, my grandpa passed away at the beginning of February, so it has been a tough time for my family and I. In the weeks leading up to his passing, we were at the hospital pretty much every day, which takes a considerable toll on one’s physical and emotional wellbeing. During this time as well, my anxiety felt like it was at an all time high. Walking into the hospital made me extremely anxious, as well as leaving the hospital because I never knew if that would be the last time I see my grandpa. Even to this day, passing the hospital still makes me feel weird (which is pretty inconvenient since my boyfriend lives right across it). School was a bit tough for me, as this situation was the only thing on my mind, which made it extremely hard to concentrate. It was also pretty hard watching everyone in my family deal with this tragedy.
Personally, I felt like it would be pretty superficial of me to write reviews and posts about beauty and life, when I had other things going on in my personal life that were more of a priority to me. In comparison to the things that have been going on, I really didn’t care about makeup or anything. However, I think that was a mistake on my part. I really do love writing and talking about makeup, so cutting that part out of my life could be a factor that added to my sadness. But at least I know for next time.
So that explains my absence. But with every cloud there is a silver lining! I wanted to save this part for last just because it is kind of a heavy topic. Thanks for reading this far though! And I hope none of you give up on me 🙂 I have potential! And I would love having more people along with me on this journey.